[Since finishing his acclaimed debut documentary] Dark Days, ... about a group of guys who are the best at what they do and are the first in the door when something goes wrong. |
I'd see people in the middle of winter sleeping under a blanket in the snow, ... I'd be looking at them from my window and I would think, 'What's going through that person's mind?' |
It's very different now, my relationship with them, |
My brother Joseph is ill. He has leukemia. They say I've shown courage on the football field, but for me it's only on the field, and only in the fall. Joey lives with pain all the time. His courage is 'round the clock. I want him to have this trophy. It's more his than mine, because he's been such an inspiration to me. |
One of them, who I became really friendly with, used to talk about the tunnels, ... He'd say, 'In the wintertime, I'm going into the tunnels. I'm sick of sleeping out here.' |
There were times when I was ready to shoot myself, |
When you watch all these other projects, you always see the little guy, sitting in the corner, feeling sorry for himself and blaming the whole world, ... You don't see a normal person. |