It's a funny feeling right now. Looking back on everything I've been through, being in an alcohol treatment facility, I thought I burned all my bridges as far as all the organizations in the NFL were concerned. |
It's an odd way to find out. (They) can't even give the man respect enough to wait until Monday and enjoy the win at least. |
It's not enough for me to just say I'm sorry for the things I did. I have to basically live out the sorry part with everything I do on a daily basis. But, yeah, being here, just looking around this place, being on the field with such great players, shows me how far I've come in a very short period of time. It is like heaven to me. And it reminds me that, whatever I've done to get things turned around in my life, well, I've got to keep doing it. |
Let's face it, I could have killed myself, and my family, my mother who means so much to me, would have spent the rest of her life mourning me. Or worse yet, I could have killed some innocent people and their families would have then suffered a great loss. Lay awake at night and think about that for a while. If that doesn't scare you, then something's wrong with you. |
Sometimes we get caught up in this lifestyle that we live. That's what I felt like I was doing. I made a bad decision and made mistakes. I'm also man enough to see my mistakes and be willing to do something about them. |
Ted's my guy. I love Ted. He was trying pretty hard, ... But I had to go with my heart, though. I couldn't sleep that night. Everything sounded good, and I wanted to go back with Ted, but I felt in my heart that Minnesota came first and tried to get me. I was available, and Minnesota was the front-runner for showing me some love, showing me some interest, so I had to go with them. I'm happy with my decision. |
That made all the difference. |
To have someone like coach Tice call you and say they'll give me an opportunity once you get out of there, it's that much better to go in and do what you have to do and get out of there, |
We wish we were playing for something, but we're playing for pride and that's a big thing in itself. Also, just to let 'em know that, hey, if things worked out a little differently, this is what y'all would've got. |